I Look Forward To It

Ray sleeping with his cat Callie at his childhood home on Sate Fair Street in Detroit about 1991.

Here it is...December 17, 2012.  Closing in on the third year of my loss.  I just read my blog from 2009 on this date.  Things were not going well.  We kept our faith that God would take care of things.  Although I don't know the answer, I do believe that God did take care of things.  Whatever those "things" may have been. 

I have a new life now.  I have embraced my new life while still holding on to the past with a string right now.  I have hardly any guilt when I feel happy and feel that I have moved on.  I have to move on, not because "Ray would have wanted it" but because I need to do that if I plan to have any sense of a normal life in my future.  I am now seeing a normal life.  I am happy...very happy.  I struggle, with finances, decisions to make, etc.  However, I am happy.

I have my new dog Jack.  Although, with his diabetes (and I am treating it) I think he is starting to go blind.  He can't see things that I practically put right in his face.  He has been bumping into walls.  Not real bad, but I've noticed it.  He is very loving and I will take care of him. 

The cats are doing just great.  Wiley and Jack get along fantastically.  That makes me happy, because Wiley was Ray's favorite (although he would never have admitted it), so if Wiley is happy, I am happy.  Ray loved his cats, as you can see from the picture above with his cat, Callie, in 1991.  Moscow and Mondo have bonded.  Mondo is also starting to "accept" Jack.  He won't get too close to him, but he can now tolerate being in the same room together.  

I will be "home" for Christmas this year.  Last year I was in North Carolina with Friedl and her daughter's family.  It will be nice to be at home.  I will spend Christmas day relaxing with Drew.  I look forward to it.  -  Jimmy

That's My Update

Today I looked back at my blog from two years ago.  It was just too depressing to continue reading.  What a downer!  How could anybody have read my blogs?!

No snow so far.  It's been nice out actually.  In fact, the sun is out right now.

Drew and I found a tree for Christmas.  It's gorgous!  Nine feet tall!  It fills the bay window in the parlor.  Need to finish decorating the house this week.  Looking forward to all the final decorations being up.

I had homemade chicken noodle soup for dinner last night.  Ray's recipe.  It was DELICIOUS!  I'll have leftovers today for lunch.  It's soooo good.

That's my update. - Jimmy

Sort That All Out

Wow, it's been a whole month since I have posted.  I am feeling much, much better now.  Lots of stuff going on right now.

Drew and I went to get a tree for Christmas and the place Ray and I have been going to for years was vacant...closed down.  So, tomorrow we will try to find another place for a tree.

Drew is now fully moved out of his condo in Chicago.  Everything that was left was moved out yesterday.  He plans to go back this week to sell what is left and be done with it.

Jack, my new dog, is doing great.  He is such a sweetie.  The insulin is doing great for him.  The cats are getting along fine with him.

Lots more going on, but I have to sort that all out.  Jimmy