My Current Update

OK, so it's been a really long time since writing.  Nothing much "new" to write about.  I've been dealing with some deep depression, but getting back on my medication and starting to come out of it.  I think I'll make my annual visit to my physician and see if he can make a referral to a professional who will listen to me.  I've said it for so long, but it's been a rough 10 months!

We have the house nice and decorated for Halloween!  I can only imagine what Christmas will look life!

I have so much more to say, but I'm on break at work.  So that is my current update.  -  Jimmy

Stay Tuned

My Walk Home

A new life sounds exciting.  I guess it can be.  When I moved in with Ray it was a "new life" for me.  When we moved to Royal Oak...oh such a fun new life.  Buying our condo in Douglas....how exciting.  Then the Kirby House...ahh the Kirby House.  Something that will ALWAYS be a part of me.  What an exciting new life!  But these were all familiar for me.  It was with the love of my life.  Raymond was with me for each and every one of these adventures.  When I have made my new life now...it's different.  There is no familiarity.  I am embracing it.  But it's not the same.  I think if Ray was here with me as we went through the change in life it might be different.  Or maybe not.  Maybe it would be nothing like I dream. 

I struggle every day.  I struggle to accept my life.  I've really been wholloped into a new life.  It's a good life.  Don't get me wrong.  There is just no familiarity.  I guess that is what I miss.  Familiarity.  It takes a while for relationships to grow...to mature.  Drew and I have been dating three years.  Things are getting "familiar" but not like a relationship of 21 years.  We're growing...I'm growing.  We are a work in progress.

I walked Harley today.  This is the picture (above) I took as we walked back home.  It's really nice.  But, am I ready for a more "urban" scene?  Stay tuned.  - Jimmy