I'm done surviving. For the last four years I have been surviving. Or, I've felt like I am a survivor. I am done with that. I am ready to move on. I'm ready to stop living my life just in survival mode. I haven't truly moved on with my life. It's all just been me telling myself "I am moving on" - but actaully I've just been doing things to survive.
The last few days I've had the flu. It hit me like a rock on Thursday. Tonight I sit here alone and think about my life. I realized that what I've been doing for four years is just surving. Doing what I need to do to make it. Now I am ready to take control of my life, quit living in the past, move on to what I want to do. Not just do things to surving, but to do what I want to do...and not feel guilty about it. Or, worry about what others think.
This may sound strange, as most people probably think that I've "moved on." In ways I have, but I've aways felt like I've just been surving. Do what I have to do to make it. Now I want live my life like I'm doing what I want, not what I have to do.
I am ready to live life again! - Jimmy
