Cries this morning...for Ray. Looking at a photo posted on Facebook of Ray's (and my future) tombstone. The photo was posted by my friend and former guest Dave. He placed some pumpkins at Ray's grave for Halloween. There were so many "likes" and when I saw all who "liked" the photo it made me cry. I looked at each name and thought of each relationship Ray had with each individual.
Each year as I approach the anniversary of his diagnosis, surgery and death I get major anxiety and depression. And...I usually need to medicate for a few months. I'm hoping I can get through this year without that. - Jimmy
