Happy Halloween

My favorite holiday is upon us.  I will only get about eight trick or treaters, but I always give out the full sized candy bars.  I hate the bags of the mini candy bars that say "fun size."  That is not fun size.  The fun size are the FULL SIZE candy bars...my favorite of which is Snickers!

I've kind of been in a "funk" lately.  Lots of struggles I've been dealing with.  At times I just don't know what I am going to do.  I'm trying my best to trust God, but right now I'm not happy with the journey.  I have felt in such despair I lay in bed most of the day.  Some of it may be just from exhaustion from summer...it's nice to have some down time and free time.  My wonderful friends help get me through.  Their support means a lot.  I still try very hard to enjoy today in spite of my issues.  I really wish I had more business, it would help keep my mind off things and help financially.

Ok, enough about that.  I have decided to start Jack on insulin shots.  It should make him feel better.  I found out it's not that expensive and I want to take care of him.  He is such a sweet dog.  No trouble at all.  He doesn't bark, he's laid back...but, if he gets outside off his leash he runs across the street to the back kitchen door of Pizza Mambo.  He smells the delicious scents coming from there and he is off like a rocket.  As laid back as he is he sure can run like a rocket to Pizza Mambo.

I'm healing up very, very well.  In about three more weeks I'll start going back to the gym.  That should help with my emotions too.  Very little pain and it looks like the scar will hardly be noticeable.

Today would have been my dad's birthday.  He was born (of course) on halloween.  He would have been 89 years old.  He's been gone now for over 17 years.  He was a very good father and a devoted husband.

I listened to George Michael's version of the song "First Time Ever I Saw Your Face" this morning.  It made me think of the first time I saw Ray, kissed Ray, our hearts close to each other in bed.  I cried.  I have moved on to a new life, but I sure do miss him still.  It's just that it's not so painful now. The heavy, wet blankets that I felt over my body and soul are gone, but I miss him.  It's just not every single moment of every single day.  I am glad about that.  Those were very painful and exhausting days.

Tonight I'm having dinner at Friedl's.  It will be good to get out of the house and have dinner somewhere else.  Getting out of the house still helps me escape my issues.

Not sure if I mentioned this, but Drew got a job at the grocery store across the street.  It has been great for him to get back into the workforce.  He seems very happy working there.  I'm happy for him.

This is my update for now.  Happy Halloween!  -  Jimmy