Four years! Four years ago tonight I lost my other half, Ray Riker, III. I will never forget that day. Every single minute of that last day is etched in my mind forever.
I do finally feel like I have accepted life, my new life. It's taken so long. There have been so many downs, and just when I though I couldn't get any more down somehow it happened.
I will give a toast to Ray tonight. Tried to visit him at the cemetery today but it wasn't plowed and the new car rides so low I won't risk driving up. But I did stop and say "hi" from the road. - Jimmy
Jim,
ReplyDeleteWhat if you wrote a book about Kirby House and how you found hope in the heart of darkness???
It would have all the elements of a best seller (heartache, love, friendship, laughter, romance, sex too and most importantly keeping your faith even when you had ever right not to). Perhaps that is why they call it faith. This book could all take place in one spot called Kirby House.
What would be the motive be of writing such a book??? Perhaps healing not only for yourself but for those who also find themselves in a situation so painful that there may appear to be no way out.
Jim, you walked through death valley (sometimes with bleeding footsteps) and found your way out to a new life. You walked through it.
Perhaps you may just feel just the need to move on like you are doing. Kirby House will always be a part of you because of love. You will always be connected to Ray through love.
Some people spend their whole life running from love for fear of losing it. What an empty way to live.
You learned valuable lessons and even shared them with us. I know your book would sell out especially during the summer months at the shops in Douglas/Saugutak.
If you made it through all this then perhaps others can too. I think you would give them hope like you are doing /have done here. But you also shared the darkness with us and the darkness did not overcome it.
Only you know what is best for you. This thought came to me during a walk in the cold and snow tonight. Strange but I also remembered a walk after dinner with you and some of the guest of Kirby house one year in the cold.
Keep up your journey towards healing.
You are stronger than you know.
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