I looked at cards today. Sympathy cards sent to me after Ray died. I hadn't planned on it, but the Kirby House is going to be on the "Heritage Homes Tour" next Saturday and so I was moving things around in preparation of having less clutter around and I picked the basket of cards up. As I went through them I realized (again) how many people Ray brought joy to, and the many people who wrote to me that Ray told them how I made his life rich and full. He told me that many times, but when I hear that he told other people that behind my back I know he was telling me the truth. The thing is...I couldn't cry. I kind of wanted to, and even tried to a little bit, but it wasn't going to happen. Emotions can't be controlled. You just have to let them happen. And, when I look at pictures of Ray they make me smile. A year ago I would NEVER have thought that could happen, that I could be at a place where the pictures didn't make me cry. For now, that is where I am. Who knows what tomorrow brings?
It's a beautiful, sunny late summer day today. Drew is in Chicago for a week. He is going to a "steak-fry" today which has been a tradition with his friends for several years. It's kind of like a pot-luck. My friend Tom is here for a visit and is helping me out. After my 1:00 check-in gets here we are going to the farmers' market in Holland. A great day for that...weather wise.
My life is moving forward. - Jimmy
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