Getting close to "the" date. Two years ago right now Ray was resting in the apartment on the third floor while I took care of the new year's plans. I had so little idea what was in store for me. After everyone leaves on Monday I will spend time to remember "my" Ray.
After Ray died Marguerite gave me a scented candle. I burned it only once, but it stayed on the nightstand next to me for the next four months. Every once in a while I pick it up and smell it. It reminds me of those days after his death. I slept in room three for three months. I will relive some of that soon. I will sleep in room three with that scented candle next to me. It seems odd to want to try to "go back" in time, but it somewhat makes me feel closer to Ray. I don't think there are rules in grieving.
I'm doing very good. People ask me all the time....and I am doing real good. Someone asked me recently how I was doing. One of the things I mentioned was that having no snow outside helps. It doesn't bring back the memories of going to and from the hospital. Strange...but it helps. Happy New Year! - Jimmy
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