2013 is almost over. The worst year of my life. I totally hit “rock bottom.” Most of my personal belongings are gone. A couple months ago I said “What more can God take?” Well she showed me, my vehicle. On Thursday night, November 7 I hit a deer full speed at 50 mph. My hood hit the center of this huge deer and tossed her about a hundred feet. My truck engine was hissing steam and anti-freeze was draining freely from the radiator.
I had been beaten down as far as I can go. Over 90% of my possessions gone. The items I sold I had to use to pay bills. Other stuff I gave away because I had no room for it. As I said to a friend on the night I hit the deer, “I officially now have nothing…other than Halloween and Christmas decorations, along with clothes.”
I hit a full, deep down in the pit of my stomach depression. Horrible thoughts went through my head. I had officially hit rock bottom. It really hits a sense of reality at that point.
Where else can I go now but up...right? Things have all fit into place. The most important thing I have learned is that "things" don't make you happy. I truly have what I need. Food, shelter, family and friends. I've realized my happiest moments are very simple times. Just watching the Food Network at night after work with Drew is one of the happiest moments of my day.
With very little money I have really learned that I can live "without." It's pretty amazing. I really don't "need" things.
I truly believe that 2014 will be the best year I've had in that last four years. My life should be stable and settled. - Jimmy
Me too, brother. Lost my job, got kicked out of my apartment for doing the right thing. Got in a car crash. Asshole cop issued a bullshit ticket. Now I'm in an apartment where the sewer backs up on a weekly basis.
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