Friday, February 18, 2011

Everything Seems Normal

A gorgous, sunny day today.  All the snow has melted away.  Amazing...how so much snow can go away so fast.  I saw daffodils and crocus coming up.  I am still trying to get over this flu so I didn't spend much time outside, although I wish I could have.  I have been coughing so much I feel like I have been kicked repeatedly in the ribs.

I checked in two rooms.  And now making dinner.  A frozen shrimp and pasta dinner made in a skillet on the stove-top.  This is the time when Ray and I would have our dinner together and start talking about and planning our upcoming vacation.  I miss that.  Those are the moments you realize are gone forever.    And, it's moments like this that make it so hard to believe Ray is gone.  I just walked through the hall on the first floor and just felt his presence here.  Not in a "spirit" way, but in a way that you just know Ray was here.  You just "feel" it.  That makes me happy and sad at the same time.  I've accepted that though.  I know I can feel all my emotions...good or bad...and it's "ok." 

The cats are all getting along just fine.  It's amazing.  All three were sleeping in bed with me this afternoon as I napped.  Just two weeks ago today Mondo arrived at his new home...and everything seems normal.  - Jimmy

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