I'm doing good but feeling a bit sentimental tonight. Just spent five days in Detroit. I had a great time with my family. Everyone met Drew and we just shared simple family time together.
I took Drew to Royal Oak to show him my old "stomping grounds." Downtown, neighborhoods, and our old house. Apparently the house Ray and I had in Royal Oak must have gone through foreclosure. It is abandoned. No window treatments (which meant we could peek in every window). There was absolutely no furniture in the house. However, the fireplace screen we put in was still in there. After we moved to Saugatuck Ray told me he had wanted me to bring it...I didn't know that. So, I checked every door to the house...all locked. I would have taken it if I could have gotten in, after all it is actually mine/ours. The inside was a MESS! We walked around the back yard, looked at the pathetic/abandoned gardens, the deck we put in, etc. I checked the mail slot and there was an envelope which hadn't gone all the way down, so I picked it out. It was a enveloped addressed to RAY!! Mailed on January 10, 2012. It was some insurance statement...$42 was still in an account. How odd to stop by there and find mail for RAY!!! Sometimes I think that when I revisit Royal Oak it makes me more depressed. It brings back memories that will NEVER return. Wonderful memories that will never return and I can never recreate. If he were still alive we could dream of moving back (not that we would want to...but) - that will never be. I have to move on. Move forward. I do feel so happy with Drew in my life. Truly, it is a new life. - Jimmy
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