Sorry for the delay in posting. I went to Chicago with Drew for four days last week. Then, yesterday I got real sick. Some 48 hour flu or something. I'm just starting to feel better. Have eaten nothing since Friday. I will eat some chicken noodle soup tonight, Ray's recipe.
I was just reading my blog from two years ago. My goodness, why didn't I just allow myself to feel the pain and grieve!? I read how bad I wanted to get over it and feel better...now I wish I would have just embraced it and let it happen. I guess the pain was just so bad I wanted it to go away. I tried by best to "deal" with it at the time, I just wish I would have let the feelings be and not try to rush them. Some things I understand better now. Many things my grief counselor said I really understand now. At the time I didn't, but it's clear now.
I had a pretty decent cry tonight. A cry I haven't had in a long, long time. It was a good (and needed) release. I almost feel if I was able to purge some feelings. - Jimmy
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