Yesterday i mentioned my "old pair of sweat pants" - it was a metaphor for grieving. Curling up by myself and cring...missing Ray. Sometimes it is comforting.
I subbed in sixth grade today in Saugatuck. It's great to see the kids and be in a familiar classroom. I love subbing there.
All the Christmas decorations are down and packed away...except the trees. They are so beautiful I am waiting until the last minute. This weekend for sure, I hope. It's nice to see all the decorations coming down and the house starting to look normal again for the new year.
I have now been dating Drew for one year and three months. I've known him for six years. I have really taken this slowly. Very cautiously. I've even kept from posting thoughts and feelings on my blog. But, he does make me very, very happy. I also can't help but feeling guilt about that. (What do others think?) -Jimmy
Jim,
ReplyDeleteYou should absolutely NOT feel guilty. As long as you didn't cheat on Ray while he was alive, you have nothing to feel bad about. You know in your heart what Ray would tell you. He would tell you that life is too short (as his certainly was) and you should live it and enjoy it. One day you will be reunited with Ray, and you do not want to tell him you did not enjoy the rest of your life. He would be so angry with you. Life is best when shared with someone, you know that, and so does Ray. If Drew makes you happy, you have nothing to feel guilty about.
Love you!
Your sista,
Katie