Ha, Ha!

It's crazy how little things can stir up emotions.  I was just watching the TODAY show.  A commercial came on for Hershey's Chocolate Drops.  I saw a building in the background that reminded me of a building Ray and I saw in Santa Monica after our last cruise together.  BAM!  I started thinking.  I was thinking how it would be just less than a year later that he would be dead.  My mind whirled over that.  How life seemed so full and yet it would crash in an instant less than a year later.  Of course I started to cry.  It wasn't a bad cry, just some heavy tears and then calm.  Exactly like my grief counselor told me it would be.  The memories can hurt, but not as bad as they did two years ago.

I've been doing good so far at going to the gym.  It is only three weeks now thought.  I have lost 10 pounds...hooray!  I need to loose at least 20 more.  I will do it.  I just really got careless over the last two years.  I truly didn't care.  I ate anything I wanted at any time and had no desire to exercise.  None!  I tried to do some walks, but that would last a day.  I feel motivated now.  I want to look better.  I want to feel better.  I will do it.

I've been so busy here at the bed and breakfast.  It's been the busiest year since 2006!  I hope this is a sign that things are turning around.  Thank God I have Drew and Tom to help me.  Marguerite's been taking art classes at Ox-Bow and cleaning houses so she's only been here about a week all summer so far.  So, God has blessed me with help from Drew and Tom. 

Well, I gotta go.  I'm making a Baked Dutch Apple Pancake for breakfast!  Tom's making corned beef hash and Drew is making Scalloped Potatoes.  A light breakfast!  Ha, Ha! - Jimmy