I Will Let You Know

I miss Ray  What's new?  Most times I just totally regret getting to a point in our relationship where I took for granted he was there.  I will admit that.  Our relationship was far from perfect and I was not the perfect "spouse."  Oh, we loved each other dearly, but when the daily routines take over your life over the years it is easy to start to take your significant other for granted.  By that I mean one just assumes they will always be there....at least until we grow very old and are ready to die.  How I would just love to hold his hand right now, put my arm around him once more, smell him, and cuddle.  I'm getting teary as I write this.  I don't think anyone can EVERY truly understand this until they have lost their spouse/significant other.

Yesterday I booked a cruise for my mother and me!  It will be in March.  It is a 10 day Caribbean cruise with ports such as Aruba, Dominica, Granada, St. Thomas, Bahamas, etc.  It is on the Star Princess.  This is the same ship Ray and I first took our cruise.  In fact, I was able to book the exact room we were in:  B222.  It is on the Baha Deck, room 222.  I remember when we took our first cruise I picked that room from the choices because I would remember it (thinking of "Room 222" which only those over 40 would even remember).  It will be so nice to be in the exact same room we were in.  Knowing that Ray was there, touched door handles, etc.  Maybe it sounds wierd, but it will be like a nice connection to him. 

I found two rolls of film today.  I have NO idea what was on them.  I took them to the Walgreen's in Grandville and had them developed.  I have not looked at them yet, but Marguerite and I are making cocktails and we are going to look at them.  Maybe they are just pictures of guest rooms, or maybe they are some fun pictures.  I will let you know.  - Jimmy