Today looks to be a great day. The sun is shining, the temperatures are perfect. I hope to get a little time out at the pool.
Yesterday was beautiful too. After doing breakfast and cleaning rooms, Drew and I went into Holland. A quick trip to TJ Maxx and Big Lots. When we got back we sat on the front porch for a while and Friedl came over. I went to the cemetery alone. I needed to spend some time with Ray. I laid down on the grass next to his grave, pretending I was laying next to him. I then realized that, in a way, I was. His body was was just six feet away from me. It made me feel good. I thought about how close I actually was to him. I know Ray's soul is not down there, but there was this sense of "completeness" laying there "next to him." I looked at the sky imagining this was his view.
I've always wanted to be cremated and could not understand why Ray would want to be embalmed and have a casket burial. Now I am glad those were his wishes. I love to visit him. I talk to him as if I am talking to him on the phone. I know what his replies would be, so I respond back. I look and sound crazy. But he's only six feet away. - Jimmy
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