I had grief counseling this morning and then took off for Detroit. I am at my mom's right now. I came to hook up her TiVo to her cable box. Tonight I am going to my niece Julia's hockey game. She is 10 years old. I will return home tomorrow.
I have a lot to do before I leave for Vienna on Tuesday. First and foremost I have to pack. Catch up on laundry. Clean out the refrigerators. More stuff than I can think of.
Regarding my "seeing someone" I have some thoughts I would like to share. One thing this experience has taught me is the fact that life does go on. You can't stop it. You can't go back. You can't control it. I was doing what I was "supposed" to do, but I have been hanging on to the past. I was afraid that if I moved on Ray's loss would be more of a reality...as if I could prevent it from being more real. This was all in my mind of course. On the outside I am sure most people saw me as someone moving forward and living my new life. In a way I was, but I have been clinging to the past. Not throwing things away. Keeping things that I don't need anymore. Trying to make time stop. After I cleaned up the apartment last week it felt so fresh and new. It was a great feeling. I guess this is the next step. "Getting my feet wet" as my grief counselor told me today. - Jimmy
I am so happy to learn about your recent progress. I am certain that I speak for all of us that know you well and deeply care about you, we congratulate you. Have a wonderful time in Vienna- don't you concern yourself with that --it will get done. Will talk soon.
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