My Best Friend

I am back from Chicago.  Had a great dinner with guests/friends of the Kirby House.  Rob made a fantastic lasagna dinner.  Went to Macy's (the old Marshal Field's) on State Street and had lunch in the Walnut Room.  The huge tree was gorgous and we got to sit right by it!  It helped me get in the Christmas Spirit which I didn't know if I was going to have any this year.

Last night Friedl and I made a Austrian dinner for friends.  I even served Austrian wine I bought in Chicago.  I just love having dinner parties!  Today I will go shopping for Thanksgiving Dinner.  I am spending it at home.  I did not want to go anywhere else for Thanksgiving.  I've been invited to many places,  but I just want to be here at home.  I dread going somewhere and then coming home.  I feel safe and comfortable here.  It will only be Friedl, my friend Drew and me.  Friedl, Drew and I are going to do the shopping together today. 

I had some "crying" moments this morning already.  It's during the quiet times that I am allowed to think about things which makes me cry.  When I am busy and my time is occupied I am ok.  I guess I just need the moments of release or it will build up. 

I am doing good.  But...in spite of everything going on in my life I miss Ray terribly.  My best friend.  - Jimmy