You Reap What You Sow

Here it is Saturday morning (6:00 a.m.) and I can't sleep.  The worst part?  No guests to make breakfast for!  Two rooms coming in today, but no one for breakfast this morning.  Of course tomorrow I will probably want to sleep in.

My mind whirls.  There is so much I want to do before I leave.  Marguerite is in a cast (on her foot) so I have to make sure everything is available to her on the first floor. 

Last night we watched "MILK."  The movie about Harvey Milk.  There was a scene where he came home to find his partner dead (suicide).  He fell to the floor and broke apart.  I think you would have to have experienced something like that to play the role...or maybe be a great actor.  I could relate so well.  It brought back the memory of when the police officer told me Ray had passed.  I literally fell to the floor and fell apart.  Screaming....NOOOO!  It is pure hell.  I couldn't watch that scene and had to leave the room going upstairs to cry.  A few steps forward.....a step back.  That will be my life for quite a while I guess.

I am so lucky to have Ray's family around.  They accept me as part of the Riker family.  How lucky I was to find a great partner with such a great, loving, accepting family.  I have a great family, but they are "blood."  However, I guess that doesn't mean much.  My family is great too.  I guess I am so fortunate all the way around.  I have great families and great friends.  God has truly blessed me.  You reap what you sow, and I planted some great seeds and took real good care of them.  - Jimmy

PS:  So far things are going "good" with me and the man I am "seeing"....