I had grief counseling yesterday. I was too long overdue. I hadn't been there since late August. It's a good release for me because I can really share what's on my mind with a professional and not worry about freaking family and friends out about my thoughts.
I've been having a hard time lately. I miss Ray more than ever. I think in the beginning I was in shock, grief, mourning, alone, pain, uncertainty, etc. Now, while I'm still in grief, I am beginning to really, really miss him. It's been nine months and I miss him so much. My life is so changed and most times I really hate that. I hate that this happened. I hate that Ray had to suffer, that he had to die so young. I hate that he is gone from me.
Amity seems to be doing well. I must have had some 24 hour bug today, so I laid in bed a lot of the time. Amity laid there right on top of me. She was in her glory.
I sub 1/2 a day tomorrow for sixth grade in Holland. First time subbing since May. Wish me luck. - Jimmy
HI Honey!
ReplyDeleteI'll think of you tomorrow while you sub for sixth grade. They're not too bad though at that age. Good Luck!!!
I understand how you feel. I would feel the same way if it was me. Hopefully, in time you will feel better.
If you ever need to talk, call us.
Hugs as always,
Karen