Wow...what a dream I had last night.  Totally crazy.  I'll try to describe it as best I can.  It went on for a long time too.

I got a call from the hospital saying I can come and pick up Ray.  I, of course, was confused.  He's been dead for 10 months now. When I got to the hospital Ray was there and told me the whole thing was a hoax!  I was in shock.  He said he wanted me to realize how much I really loved it and if he had died I would come to realize how much.  I couldn't believe it.  My mom and many other people were in on it and they knew he was still alive!  I, however, was not happy.  I was angry.  I couldn't believe he would put me through this entire year of grieving, mourning, a funeral, emotions, grief counseling, on and on.  I was so mad at him.   Then I said, "what about the insurance?  We'll have to pay them back and I've already paid for the funeral and things around the house?!"  Then I thought how upset he was going to be when he saw the changes I made.  I was frantic!  What made me so angry (rather than being happy to see him) was that he did this all as a hoax just to make a point.  And, why did he wait so long?  A one day prank (which this would be a horrible prank) would maybe make his point, but almost a year!  And, to have several people in on it, including my mother, was just shocking.

Well.  That is all I can post today.  That is enough!  I am seeing a faint light though.  I am approaching it with some trepidation, but I'm moving toward it.  - Jimmy