Monday, December 6, 2010

Happy and Sad at the Same Time

Is it possible to feel very happy and terribly sad at the same time?  I am doing so much better.  Evidenced by looking back at my blogs from January.  I cried tonight at my loss of Ray, but am loving the snow, Christmas music and decorations.  It's like I am living in two seperate worlds right now...at the same time. 

I vegged out all day.  Slept in until 10:00 a.m.  Watched two episodes of Judge Judy.  Watched "The View" and then started the second season of "Queer as Folk" (ok, a little late on that I know).  I did pay some bills and run a couple erronds this afternoon.  Now, instead of cooking dinner, I'm going to order pizza.  Marguerite and I are going to watch old "family videos" tonight.  From 1995. 

I have grief counseling tomorrow.  I am ready for it.  I have a lot to talk about and clarify.  - Jimmy

1 comment:

  1. Jim-
    Looks like my comment didnt take so I'll post another. Im a recent transplant to Saugatuck and happened across your blog. Thought I'd follow along. Its a very different perspective than mine and I'm enjoying it. I hope you dont mind.
    -Lisa Douglas

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