One Year Anniversary

A year ago today.  The picture was taken a year ago today right before we went to the hospital.  Ray has a smile, but it looks like a "forced" smile.  It's not his usual, natural smile.  He was afraid. 

I remember the drive to the hospital so clearly.  We went in the Mazda.  Over the next two weeks I made over two dozen trips to the hospital in that car.  I am now happy I traded that car in.  It would have been a hard time getting in that car this time of year.  Just one of those small changes I made to help me move on.

I am home alone.  Maybe that is good.  It gives me some quality time to reflect and search my soul.  Not sure what I will do today.  Maybe write out some Christmas cards, watch a movie (definitely Judge Judy), maybe I'll go to Blue Star Antique Pavilion and walk around.  Maybe I'll do some laundry or clean the apartment.  Maybe I will do NOTHING!  It's nice that I have all those options.  Tonight I'm going to Clearbrook with Friedl.  What is really ironic is that I got a haircut on Decmeber 10th last year (just like this year) and Scott, Mary Ellen and I went to Clearbrook on the Saturday after Ray's sugery last year, just like this year.  The ironic thing is that this is a coincidence.  Anyway, these are just some things I realized.

Lots of snow is on the way.  I'm glad I don't have to go anywhere.  - Jimmy