I've Got My Seatbelt On

The cloudy, dark skies and snow covered ground remind me of the trips I took to Holland Hospital to visit Ray.  I remember the day we left for his surgery...he held my hand in the car and said "Do you think I'm gonna make it?"  I said "of course you will."  I believed it.  I really did.  Earlier this year someone said to me "If you want to make God laugh tell him what you have planned for your life."  (Or something to that effect.)  How true, how true.  As I went to the cemetery the other day I said "one year ago I would have NEVER imagined that I would be driving to the cemetery to pay respects to Ray." 

I am going to Grandville today to go to Costco and then to Grand Rapids to go to G.B. Russo.  G.B. Russo is a gourmet food/kitchen shop.  They have awesome stuff.  Friedl, Marguerite and Drew are going with me.  Then, we are going to The Green Well (again) for dinner.  I was scheduled to have grief counseling today, but she called to cancel because she has the flu. 

Last night I made the butternut squash soup for this weekend's dinner.  Then I made pork medallions for our dinner last night.  So the kitchen was a busy place.  I am really loving cooking.  Two years ago I would NEVER have thought I would be cooking like I am...and LOVING it.  It's a good thing or else I would starve.

Marguerite got home from Detroit yesterday.  She had a wonderful time with her family, but she said she was happy to be home.  It's great to travel, but it is always nice to get back into your own surroundings and your own bed.

I'm moving forward.  However, I anticipate that I will be having some hard times in the days ahead.  I've got my seatbelt on.  - Jimmhy