I am home alone. Marguerite left to visit a friend for almost a week and Drew took the train back to Chicago. Believe it or not I am looking forward to being alone in the days ahead. I've kept busy and so my mind is occupied. I now need some alone time at this anniversary of Ray's death. I need time to think, reflect, and look at where my life is going.
Drew helped me take down the decorations and the one big tree. I love it when all the decorations are down and the house is clean. It's like a fresh start to a new year! I've rearranged the furniture in the parlor and I think I like it. I like to make changes like that...it makes my surroundings seem "fresh." Today I will start to take down the crystal/purple tree. Then, as I put the boxes away I will start to clean up that basement.
Last winter I didn't do any projects. I was too much in grief. This year I plan to do some winter projects around the house. One thing I plan to do is paint the kitchen. Ray picked out the color currently on the walls. I never really did like it, but that was his work place so I didn't say a word.
I feel very happy today. I really never thought the day would come. Deep down inside I knew it would (or should), but at the time it sure didn't feel like I would ever feel "happy" again. - Jimmy
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