Early to Rise For Me Tonight

I had very disturbing dreams last night.  They went on and on and on.  They were very wierd with lots of odd scenarios.  I woke up relieved that they were all dreams.

Yesterday, Friedl, Drew and I went to Grand Rapids for the "Heritage Hills Home Tour."  It was a great experience to see the beautiful historic homes in Grand Rapids and how they have preserved this beautiful neighborhood. 

This evening Drew and I went to the cemetery to visit Ray.  The grass Marguerite and I planted last fall is taking really nice now.  It is starting to look good.  I miss Ray so deeply and worry sometimes that it is holding me back from really appreciating the time I am spending with Drew.  I feel "hesitant" most of the time.  I'm afraid of what guests "will think."  We went into the SuperValu grocery store this evening.  Two of the cashiers saw us and said "hi" - they talked to us.  When we left I realized they never met Ray.  They never knew Ray and I as a couple.  They have only seen me or Drew and me in the store.  It seems odd that they see me in a different life.  (Hard to explain.)

I have to sub for fourth grade tomorrow in Jenison.  So, early to bed - early to rise for me tonight.  - Jimmy